1am

has been awhile before this post. I can barely say why...

Life being too good, hoping so ;) Anyways, happy ramadhan, even though towards its end. I'm more interested on my 2nd child birth. Looking forward for it, going 38 weeks in couple of days, guess I am never been more excited than ever. Still working, still driving to work and home, still doing chores - well, being me, nothing gets in the way. Pregnancy is not a disease. But surely I'll cry the morning I knew I have to handle patients on inotropic support ;) and later to be home in the evening COOKING even to fry an egg!

Lately too many things I have encounter, well, wouldn't really say lately but possibly with my fast aging (blame the harsh malaysia weather) that might help me seeing things in different angle after all.

Issues being:
1) men vs women
2) workplace and colleagues
3) hierarchy
4) husband
5) my cute little maryam
6) friends

Well, seriously I don't know how do I begin, (owh so much missing my music).

Since early days of this year, 2012, I am stucked to seeing the sort of superiority of women against men. No heart feelings people. That is probably my judgmental, but I am so not sexist any point. Still saying out loud women driver SUCKS! ;)

Maturity amongst all, I can congratulate the female for it. (even my husband felt so much blessed with 2 daughters even we are longing for a boy) Well done. Mostly the youngster- of course, why should I care about those older than my generation for they by hook or crook already should be mature enough by now.

Surprising enough, educations not all a man need to grow. I, myself too needed to learn living the life the hard way, but seriously the subject of life is not only one, if my naivety being questioned. I needed none of life subjected classes on how to cherish my family, to take charge of my family, to make a decision, to think whats next and what to do on daily basis.

C'mon, life is too short (in fact a day is indeed too short) for one to hesitate and waiting for orders. But why, when I have to let both my eyes to witness men being too choosy, slow and passive? aah not saying anyone else, but my brothers. Cant express further my frustration on seeing the way life has been ahead of them so far. Not saying I am far better than them, but at least I took the challenges of life and lead it on. What I have or lacking of is part of life. I am not a monkey to carry all the past on my shoulder. Learn to dump it somewhere and get going!

Sorry if that was too harsh to anyone reading this so far.

Secondly, surprise surprise people! I had a fight at workplace recently. ME? wow, seriously??
I am not the type of person that would lose my temper so easily. I am quite good at looking and balancing my anger. Always has ways to allay it. But this freaking mo-nster making me so annoyed that I have to straight away blast my anger.

Work is work, and I have positive side at work which is my patient's welfare is my number one. When others start questioning my doings, sorry dear, you're far too close to being none other than JEALOUS!
Once bitten twice shy. I knew it from the beginning that you are to be avoided even further than 2km away, the first time I ever had to get my bilateral eyes having the images of your face!

Faking evidence, before a patient dies, even it causes no toll on your life later but don't get me involved. Not many knows how to be responsible. I too know it is hard especially when it has to be you to carry it out. But blaming me? ahaha not a single other being takes your accusation. Even you are a ladder higher than me, making you my in charge still you are just my boss. Hello, not even you paying my salary.*sorry can't elaborate much on this. doc-patient-confidentiality!


urgh.. so sleepy now, enough for the time being. Guess the rest of the issues need some other resting times to be shared. I am just missing my time kissing the computer head before going to sleep.

To my unborn fatimah, mummy loves you. Sorry for keeping you dehydrated today. can't help it, but waking up at 3pm seriously was daddy's fault. peace!